Current mood:	tired
Current music:	The Gift - Seether

today is independence day. a holiday that ppl normally spend with their family but not me my parents are in tennessee white water rafting and im at home by myself with my neighbors watching me so i dont throw ne parties. this definitely = teh suck. well i havent been sleeping well still and now im getting headaches more often it really sux. my friend has had to work the past four days from 11 to 11 so i have barely gotten to talk to her and that really sux. my head is driving me crazy. there are things i dont want to think about that just seem to come up at the worst times and i just get really depressed. i know everyone has those moments. dustin im sorry for not including you. you have helped me a lot and i shouldve recognized you. there are just so many questions in my life that i wish i had answers for but i dont and u know its not fun to be like this. and i really am just tired of everything in my life. but then there is the one thing in my life that i know is that i have hope but that is all i have at the moment. and maybe its the only thing keeping me sane or even alive i dont know. i guess there really is no future unless you hope for something. well happy fourth of july jen gordon and dustin becuz you are the only ones who read this. .... i guess thats it for now.