adani ([info]adani) wrote,
@ 2005-06-26 23:10:00
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Current mood: crappy
Current music:Silhouettes-Smile Empty Soul

I dont know whats going on ne more
alright heres the deal... i told the girl the way i felt about her and she didnt know what to say. now i dont know what that means, only she could tell me but we havent talked about it since the night i told her which had to be one of the best nights of my life. u know she made me a bracelet about 4 months ago and i havent taken it off since. its kinda for hope because for awhile thats all i had and now again that is all i have. now on a lighter note i did alot of cool things this weekend. i went to see land of the dead. its good. then i went to cpr fest and it was fun but it could have been better if jen would have been there. sry i thought about you the whole time. well then i went to fountainblue national park in lousiana to do some live action role playing and it was cool but kinda duller than usual. ok now for the bad stuff, my parents are most likely not letting me stay at my house when they go on vacation so... well that wont stop me lol. but im also gonna be in trouble at work for spilling chilli in the cooler and not cleaning it up, but another thing that has been really bugging me is my friends are not supportive of my decisions at all. they think no matter what i do i will fail and it is really lowering my self esteem. only gordon has supported me in getting over my shyness all the rest said well i dont care what they said ne more. but these ppl are supposed to be my friends not my enemies but ne way thanx to jen and gordon i got over my shyness at least for a moment long enough to tell the girl how i felt. today i just cried from like 4:30pm- 7:30pm but i finally told my dad the things ive been keeping in for so long and i think he found out some things i prolly shouldve said earlier. but yeah im just completely drained physically and emotionally. im so tired and i dont mean sleepy. well i guess for now i just have to hope and pray to something bc i need some serious help. well i guess thats it for now ttyl


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[info]eternalcascade
2005-06-27 04:19 pm UTC (link)
Hey.
I had fun the other night too, I can't believe I kept going until I got to Bay St. Louis. I can't believe you're still wearing that bracelet. *shocked* I'm also surprised it hasn't fell to pieces yet. I hope it doesn't. I'm sorry you're confused and that some or most people suck. I still don't know what to say and maybe that's because I haven't let the thought soak in for fear of something. I'm a mess in my head and I have been for a while. Like that chili in the freezer, it needs to be cleaned up.

ttyl,
Jen

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[info]neobladex
2005-06-27 08:29 pm UTC (link)
Adam u know i always have your back on anything you do so if u ever need to talk... I hope u come back to phoniex.. i know how it feels to have a big mess in the head i fianlly amcleaning up my own mess well talk to u latzz

GOrdon

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[info]iamdiluted
2005-07-03 04:56 am UTC (link)
only gordon supports you? Bull fucking shit. If what I've been trying to help you with isn't supporting you then I'll stop putting forth useless effort.

I kid. Take it any way you want, as long as you get the job done.

Much love to ya bro.

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