Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	My Immortal - Evanesence

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well on a lighter note b4 i get to the bad stuff... i am cleared of the charges of the cups cuz apparently they got me and my friend mixed up so now hes going to court for this. of course because im a good friend im gonna tell my story about me taking the cups but matt telling me to but im off the hook so that was good and my insurance dropped 70 bucks a month its still outrageous but its better. now the bad... first of all im having trouble sleeping bc of everything on my mind and its really hurting my head. ive really been thinking alot about this girl and i want to tell her how i feel but i dont want it to ruin our friendship. and it really hurts to keep it in as long as i have. it sux im shy so i cant tell her and bc i cant tell her im hurting. well i think i already said this but my parents are going out of town next week and ill have the house to myself for a week. and they are leaving me alone for independence day. i dont know what the hell im gonna do but i wanna party. and not drink just like have some friends come over and chill. but i dont know im so torn. my parents told me not to have ne one over. my head hurts so bad all the time. and i feel like crying all the time. i feel like im pretty much worthless too. i go to work, come home and sit at my computer and i do nothing worth nething. the only time i feel im worth somehting is when im talking the girl i mentioned earlier. there is so much pain built up in me i just dont know what to do and im afraid there is nothing that can get rid of it..... :( there are really no words that can describe the way im feeling but i did the best i could so it may not appear as bad as it is....You all have a good day.